In the Burning Phase of My Life.

To befriend the shadow girl in the mirror…

Thank you!

I want to say thank you to everyone who is reading my writings so far. Some are older things that I just feel have a place here, but I’m also going to write daily on anything that my mind brews and serves to me. The writing is coming more easily now…yet paradoxically it is far more difficult for me at the same time. The ecstasy of headlong creation that was (strangely) possible while I was busy starving to death two winters ago seems to have left the building. With true clarity comes ordered thought, and with ordered thought comes a strange kind of regret. Now I am my own constant companion, the passenger in my own sidecar. I am exquisitely aware of each moment and the attendant feelings, both fair and foul, that come along with having the blinders of constant chaos lifted.

So, what am I really trying to say?

Right now, things are feeling more than a bit uncomfortable. I am working on the sequel to The Vanishing Point and the going is, well,  rough. There are a lot of things that I don’t want to remember…and even more alarming,  many more things that I simply don’t remember. I am trying to reconstruct the story moment by moment, which is parallel to the way that I am trying to orchestrate my recovery…minute by minute.

Thanks again for stopping by. I am eternally grateful for anyone who reads my words. If you like what you read, or even if you don’t like it, please leave me comments here…no overly-sensitive writer likes to labor in black and endless space. We may live and die alone, but along the way it’s always nice to gather those you love around you in front of a cheery fire.

Love, luck and passion to you all.


March 13, 2010 - Posted by | Deep thoughts with a side of coffee. | , , , , , ,


  1. oh hun.. im sorry you are remembering shitty stuff. but you are stronger then those memorys. you lived through them once you can do it again and this time you can control it. im always here hun.

    Comment by liv | March 13, 2010 | Reply

    • thank you, dear sis. I really, really do appreciate it. I’m kind of forcing myself to sit here and write without too much distraction for once, or I’d NEVER do it. xxx.

      Comment by Jen Kamerman-Jenkins | March 13, 2010 | Reply

  2. your welcome. just thought you might need some encouraging words from you sis…
    and thats good you are finding peace … and quiet to write

    Comment by liv | March 13, 2010 | Reply

  3. so glad you have a blog up again. ❤

    Comment by Lily | May 17, 2010 | Reply

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